Oh that harsh devil inside of me. Will you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your ambitions deep down into my soul. And there I am, the monster having its way, playing around inside of me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I try and run from you.
But I will fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my incapability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore in regards to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you really are and who you turned me into. I'm not trying to fool anybody any more by showing them a grin on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you have to say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe I will even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start talking with you for the very first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It's time to start living my life and make the best calls I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh demon deep within. You can show me a trail that absolutely is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of ignorance. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have to say.
But I will fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my incapability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore in regards to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you really are and who you turned me into. I'm not trying to fool anybody any more by showing them a grin on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you have to say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe I will even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start talking with you for the very first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It's time to start living my life and make the best calls I am able to. But I know that I must consult with you...oh demon deep within. You can show me a trail that absolutely is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of ignorance. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
